Where do I start? Let me start by saying this has been a challenging year, not just for myself but for many. Collectively we have been experiencing many shifts and changes. Don’t you feel the changes in the air? I don’t know about you, but I know many mornings I wake up feeling this change around me, something in the air, on a deeper level that my soul recognizes and yet not quite knowing what it is I am feeling. But what I do know for sure that change is inevitable and we are experiencing major changes collectively. Some are unfolding now and some are behind the scenes that have not yet manifested.
There are divine forces at work. In order for our Mother Earth Gaia to survive and us as a human race, change must happen. We are in a time where all that has been hidden under the surface is now being bought to light. The turmoil of our world didn’t just begin overnight. It’s been happening for a very long time. We have been living in the dark. The lies, the deceit, the corruption of political systems will fail and fall. This is a time where the injustices of the world are being bought to light and now more than ever. What is not of God, what is not of LOVE ,what is not of truth and what is not of light cannot and will not prevail. This is why spiritual awakening is so important. This is why understanding the power and spirit of your own soul is important. Too many people are still sleeping. When we are sleeping we are in the dark. What do I mean by this? When we do not recognize the power and presence of our own soul, our spirit we are separated from God and when we are separated from God, we are separated from the truth of who we are and that is Love and where there is separation from love there is only the dark. Hell is not this place deep down somewhere with this raging blazing fire where souls are tortured for all of eternity. Hell is here, hell is the ego mind that takes over and creates feelings of unworthiness, judgements of others, hate, jealousy, depression, anxiety , stress, worry, illness, despair, lovelessness, loneliness, and so much more. Hell is the separation from God, which means separation from LOVE. Anything that is not of love is not of truth, and anything that is not of love is of fear which means all that is not of love is an illusion, for LOVE is all there is. Love is who we are it is what we are for our creator is LOVE.
I want to share with you my recent journey and how empowering it’s been for me. This year has had many powerful planetary shifts and alignments, eclipses and retrogrades. The most recent retrograde and the one we are currently in, is Venus. Venus is the planet of love, relationships, partnerships, she’s also the material and monetary, luxury and things of beauty. People mostly know and learn about Mercury Retrograde and the influences it has on us when it turns retrograde. But all planets turn retrograde and when they do , you can bet that you are about to learn some big lessons and possibly have a few reality checks. Retrogrades are also a time for deep reflection and inner growth and transformation.
Venus turned retrograde on October 5th in the sign of Scorpio and will station direct on November 16th in Libra. Venus is the ruler of two signs Taurus and Libra. It is no coincidence that Venus turned retrograde in the sign of Scorpio during her descent into the underworld. Scorpio is the sign of death and rebirth. It is symbolized as the phoenix rising from the ashes. Venus has two stages of a retrograde, the first half is when she begins her descent into the underworld as the evening star and the other is when she rises again as the morning star. The zodiac signs that are affected the most by her retrograde is Taurus and Libra because she is the ruler of both, however this does not mean that the other signs do not feel anything from her retrograde cycle, it also depends on where Venus is on your personal astrological chart. Venus also challenges Aries and Scorpio during this retrograde. Venus retrograde is for 40 days. 40 is a number of spiritual significance it is a sacred number in pretty much every religion. If you look at the bible the number 40 has been bought up more than once. Jesus went into the desert for 40 days. He also appeared to his disciples and others for 40 days after his resurrection from the dead. 40 symbolizes a period of testing, trials and probation. It also signifies changes and transformations that lead to a rebirth. During Moses life he lived 40 days in Egypt and 40 days in the desert before he was chosen by God to lead his people out of slavery. Moses was also on Mount Sinai for 40 days and 40 nights on two separate occasions receiving Gods Laws. There are many more stories where the number 40 is of great significance.
When Venus turns retrograde you have 40 days to review, revisit, re-evaluate your love life and your relationships. But this isn’t just about your relationship with others, it’s also about your relationship with yourself. And this is where the sharing of my journey begins.
If I was to share what I felt my theme of this year has been, I would definitely say it has been about my relationship with myself. This entire year, I have been learning about the importance of self love, nurturing and self care. One of the challenges I’ve had this year has been my health. And again that ties into self love and nurturing. I have been receiving signs and messages about taking care of my own health and well being for a very long time, and yet I continued to ignore the messages and instead wanted to charge full steam ahead with my very large to do list. This year however I could no longer ignore the screams of my own body and soul. I have had to learn the hard way due to my own negligence.
Just as Venus was starting to turn Retrograde, my living environment changed, I had family leave for a trip abroad. This left me in a place of incredible quiet, no one home except myself and my dog Max. The house has been so incredibly quiet it almost felt overwhelming at first. But I decided to take advantage of this precious time I had with myself, after all it’s not often that I have a chance to have peace and quiet. When my family left, I had this incredible urge to just detach and withdraw from the outside world and that included making a decision to do a detox from social media. That’s right DETOX, social media is like an addiction, and it’s a huge distraction. I never knew how distracted I was, until I decided to take the time to break away from it. The only place I wasn’t able to break away from was my job and trust me the feeling of just wanting to quit during this time has been huge.
Just as I was starting to withdraw into my own shell, Venus began her descent into the underworld. A coincidence? I think not. I am after all a Taurus and my ruling planet is Venus. When Venus descends into the underworld she does as the evening star Libra and when she rises from the underworld she does as the morning star Taurus. The planets have a lot more to do with us than most people think. They play a big role in how our lives unfold.
It’s interesting because my Venus retrograde journey has taken me within. It has taken me back to connection with my soul and the divine. I have always been one to sit for meditation, I love meditation, I find comfort and peace from it and yet for the past two years I have been on and off with my practice and when I was sitting , I was not able to concentrate, I was continuously distracted. However when my family left and I made that decision to withdraw and detach, I found myself wanting to just sit in silence and solitude and it has been transformational for me. For me this period has been about coming home. It’s been about my connection and relationship with God. Every morning I’ve been taking the time to sit in meditation and gratitude. I’ve practiced being in stillness and quiet. I’ve allowed my soul, my spirit within to communicate to me. To understand the emotions and feelings that are always just there, just beneath the surface. Those feelings we all try to run or hide from. It’s taken me to a place of understanding that even when you are alone you are not alone. We are never really alone because where there is God, how can you be alone.
Your happiness does not depend on others or what you do and do not have in your life. Happiness is a state of being. When you rely on others or situations to fulfill that need within you that is codependency. And when that thing that makes you feel happy and safe is gone, you are unhappy again until you find something else to replace that need with.
Over the last couple of weeks I have fully immersed myself in meditation, gratitude, stillness, reflection and reading. In the evenings after work I wasn’t sitting watching TV I was reading or studying things of the metaphysical. I also signed up for this daily teaching by Marianne Williamson based on A Course in Miracles, as I’ve been waking up every morning , I have been listening to her talks and that lead me back to studying A Course in Miracles and applying the daily lessons. I have picked up the A Course in Miracles many times and never quite fully dedicated myself. This time I feel so much more committed to doing the work. That in itself has been so profound and transformational for me. As I have detached from others and taken a break from social media, I have become more centered and connected. I’ve allowed myself to embrace this period of pause, the stillness and the quiet rather than try to run from it. By allowing myself to embrace this stillness I have been experiencing the power and presence of my own spirit. All of a sudden the mental fog has begun to lift. The messages and guidance are clear. I’ve also been paying attention and listening to the guidance I’ve been receiving about my health and well being. The signs and messages I am receiving about my health are in perfect synchronicity. All of a sudden the miracles of synchronicity are unfolding everyday.
As I’ve taken this time to be with myself this power and presence of my own soul has begun to rise. I feel it deep within me, this profound shift. I am learning to surrender and let go more. I’m learning to detach from how things will happen and instead allowing things to happen. The less I try to do and the more I just simply allow, the greater the blessings. I am noticing that I don’t need to try so hard to make pieces of the puzzle fit. Everything is unfolding as it needs to in the time it needs to.
I have to say this past week was probably the most transformational. It was where I was feeling the greatest shift from within me. All the time and work I’ve been putting in over the last few weeks, I am finally feeling the shift within myself. I am coming to a place of deep understanding of that place within me that is sacred and divine. And yet even as I say this, my journey does not end here. There is still so much to learn and so much to integrate. I could never possibly learn everything I need to in this one lifetime. I will always be a student.
From detachment I have also seen how it has contributed to building power in my work. As I’ve taken the time to be more present, still and quiet, I am feeling, hearing and seeing the presence of spirit in away that I’ve not quite experienced before. My intuition has become super heightened and I feel this profound shift within myself and my work taking place.
I have always felt that as we go through obstacles and challenges in our life and learn and grow, we also experience a shift with our work. It goes hand in hand. I have noticed an absolute pattern of when I have gone through a powerful time of change and learning that my spiritual work will also shift and change for the positive . You cannot soar from point A to point B without the journey in-between that journey is the journey of your own soul. It is the path we choose and accept to be on when we awaken to our spiritual self.
So many of us focus on the destination rather than the journey, but the true blessings come from the journey. It’s the journey that is the most important. You cannot change your past and the future is not known or guaranteed, you can only live in this moment, here in the now. Every choice we make is in the now, the experience is in the now, the memory is created in the now, the changes you make you can make now. This is where it matters. We must learn how to become still and be more present in our day to day and also learn to adapt to the natural rhythms and cycles in our life. It’s through the moments of stillness and solitude we find the power of our own spirit. It is not stagnation to be still. Stillness is where the creativity will flow, it’s where our dreams are born and begin to unfold, it’s where the foundation of our lives are built. You cannot build a house without a solid foundation. If your foundation is not strong, the house will fall. Learn to embrace the moments where you find yourself in deep thought, reflection and stillness. For true power lies in understanding your own spirit and soul and in order to find that power within you , you must learn to be still. It’s not always about the doing. Sometimes it’s about being. It’s about allowing yourself to be in state of stillness and feel what you feel, understanding yourself , your thoughts, your feelings and your emotions. True power lies in the wisdom of your soul. It lies in the discovery of self realization of who you are. It lies in the connection we have with God.
Venus has begun to rise as the morning star, and as she rises, I am feeling a veil being lifted. She is moving away from the darkness of the underworld and ready to shine brightly as the morning star with a sense of renewal and rebirth. And as she is rising so is my spirit. I feel this profound shift within me unfolding. Many things have been bought to light during the first half of her cycle. As she has begun to rise, the masks are coming off, secrets are being revealed and I am seeing very clearly what I was intuitively feeling but not seeing. Maybe I didn’t want to see what was clearly before me. Maybe I wanted to be wrong about what I was intuitively feeling. Denial does not change the truth. I am grateful for all that this retrograde has illuminated for me. Sometimes the people you love and respect the most are the ones that hurt and disappoint you the most. But what I have learned is no one really has the power to hurt you unless you give them that power. If people don’t see you for the person you are, if people judge you or see you as something other than who you know yourself to be, don’t get mad or angry and judge them. People will always see you as they want to see you. It has more to do with them than it does you. You can only aspire to be the best possible person you can be. I choose to see love instead. Not everyone has to like you , nor does everyone have to love you. Love yourself enough to know when it is time to walk away from people, places, or situations that no longer serve you. Know that every relationship is a divine relationship and every encounter is a holy encounter. Never regret the relationships you have had in your life. Instead see them as great teachers for your personal growth. If people don’t love you, trust you or see you for the real authentic you, then send them love. Don’t get mad or judge or step into a lower vibration. Always send love. For when you allow others to gain a reaction from you, you lower your vibration. Don’t allow others to pull you away from your inner peace.
I am seeing so many things clearly. Many old emotions and feelings bubbled to the surface last week as we also had a full moon in Taurus. I did a spiritual cleansing and ritual for the full moon. Part of that was a releasing ritual, where I had written down all I was ready to release, I tore up the paper in pieces and burned each of the pieces one by one. After about an hour, I had some old feelings and emotions bubble up to the surface, I was a little caught off guard as I had not realized I was still holding on to those feelings. I began to cry and became very emotional, I felt overwhelmed but then just as quickly as it started it ended and I felt this weight lift off me. I needed that release and if that meant I had to shed a few tears then so be it. I felt so much better after I had allowed myself to feel that emotion. I’ve always tried to run from strong feelings or emotions. Now I am learning to embrace them, because it’s through the acknowledgement of our feelings that we can allow ourselves to begin to heal.
I have learned many things during this Venus Retrograde, but one thing I will definitely say is that there is great power that comes from stillness. I encourage you to embrace and learn from the power of stillness. For you will find great blessings from it. It is during the times of stillness that we gain greater, clarity, knowledge, wisdom and understanding. I hope what I have shared here with you today , will encourage you to find the Power through stillness. God bless and SatNam.